Been a while eh friends? I just wanted to post this....

3.69

can you believe it? Gah... I feel so smart.. if only I had applied myself before.

I DON'T THINK THIS YEAR COULD GET ANY BETTER... :)

So glad things work out, even when they don't work out :)

My fears:

being alone

Not making a difference/impact

Not being able to provide for myself

not being missed

losing something I love

check, check, check, check, and CHECK!

UGH...

"Enjoy everything that happens in your life, but NEVER make your happiness or success dependent or an attachment to any person, place, or THING!"

sometimes I think I should move on to better things, but what if there is no better things... maybe this is the green side of the fence for me... but I hope not...

i know this is very trivial... but when I came home tonight and checked my wall on facebook and saw there were about 100 messages from people wishing me a happy birthday... I got kinda excited :)

I am so grateful for my friends :) Even if I dont' show it all the time. I <3 all of you :)

night

Pat

so I was thinking about what I really and truely would want for my birthday... and I really can't think of anything I need or want. Isn't that sad? I mean my dad suggested an iPod, but really I don't think I want one. He also suggested a new digital camera, but I already have one and I don't really need a new one it is just that my old one eats up my batteries when I am not using it so it is never charged. I thought about getting this tote i saw while in fredericksburg with Marge. So i googled and ebayed it. but then realized that I will be riding my bike to school so i really can't tote a tote on a bike . I really need new clothes, shoes and accessories, because I honestly don't have ANY well I do have like 5 shirts I can wear that do not have some kind of soccer ball on it, and I have one necklace, a watch, and miscellaneous earings. Since I am trying and wanting to become a girl... this is difficult when wanting to go anywhere and look cute. I could ask for cd's but I don't really knwo what to ask for, because I cant' remember the names of the bands. Well maybe Angels and Airwaves or some country stuff... (i know shocker). uhm... getting a manicure woudl be nice, but since soccer starts up the day after my birthday that will last a whole day before ruined.

I could just ask for a weekend in austin or san antonio or something and just hang all weekend before pre season starts... with all my friends... but actually that might be what i want. But where to go and what to do... hum hum.... I kinda want to float the Guadalupe, go clubbing or just go out and be crazy, shop, GET MY FREE ICE CREAM FROM MARBLE SLAB. But i want to have Waco friends come too... maybe i can go out with them thrusday and then plan a weekend and then dinner on my birthday? wow... so i guess i want to stretch this baby out as long as possible :)

*so much for not having a plan on my birthday